Friday, December 16, 2005

Here. Still lost. I was just reading my sister's blog and now I'm all sad. This time of the year is the worst. Everything was suppose to be great, and all I can do is accept it and move on .. but I feel like pouting so who givez a fuck. I had it. It being everything that I wanted for my teenage life. The whole , "being spoiled", and envied for being spoiled. Parents who were always looking the other way when I wanted to be out till 4 am, and great grades with great friends. I had the fucken white picket fence, with the damn American Dream, with my nice cars and etc. And now its gone. All because of one person who decided they'd wake up and destroy everyone's life. I hate you. Cause now I'm here, and I've suffered enuff. God forgive me for being selfish. I just don't understand; but I guess I'm not suppose to. I'm suppose to rely on only you. ::sighs::